I'm tired

It's been awhile since my last blog post. I am dearly sorry. But then again does anyone even read my blog? Oh well...

Today wasn't the usual kind of day. I really don't know how I felt today actually. I think I felt tired. Not the i-want-a-whole-week-of-rest tired but the I'm just tired-of-everything tired. I'm tired of doing the same routine every single day and just keep on being a deprived child watching my friend's have a nice life while here I am stuck in the house just on the internet all day. I am so tired of the same thing everyday.

There are times I think you know I could just step out of class, get out of school and never come back you know. Or something like when my mom doesn't let me go to this event with my friend's and I could just get out of the house and go there. It's things like these that leave me wondering the rest of the night.

I don't like going to school. I hate school. I hate being taught by some person who has a degree on whatever while I'm sitting there listening to them about what they say that will affect my future or something about the "outside world". I hate it so much. I don't understand why we have to do this every single damn day for ten months straight and miss out a lot of things out there that were meant for us. I just hate how our society works.

People who deserve education don't get an education. People who don't deserve an education get an education. I know everybody deserves education but in reality people don't  use it wisely. Just like me. I don't use the education that has been given to me. I am so blessed and fortunate to be given an opportunity like this. The down side is I don't want but I need it. I just wanna be out there traveling the world and learn things by myself. I want to make a change that will change this society to have equality on everything, to stop bullying, etc. Unfortunately I do not have this opportunity because I have to finish my high school life then college life first to make this change I want. I know I can start in school but my school has limits. Unless you are intellectual then your voice maybe heard but if you're not then you should sit down and have nice grades until you speak your mind.

With that being said I think this just turned into a mini rant post. I just wanna get out of this place, runaway and never come back. I just want to make a change.

Sophomore Year > Junior Year

 I just had my second day of school today as a junior in high school. It doesn't feel right. I miss the people I used to be with in my freshman and sophomore year. I felt like I can be myself around them and they would still accept and love me. But change happens and I get taken out of my comfort zone and be with people I barely know.
Getting attached to people sucks because the little things they do that you get to experience everyday is gone. You thought you wouldn't miss it but when you are at that state of nostalgia those little things you thought you wouldn't miss; you miss it so bad. You remember the teasing that you pretend not to enjoy but you did because it made you feel happy with the people you can be yourself with, the inside jokes you have with them that will always have a part of you, the times when you're supposed to behave but you don't and be rowdy together, you miss their laugh because it makes you laugh, the details about them that you only know about and many more.
What I'm trying to say here is that I miss these people.

 

I miss seeing their faces everyday for two years in a row and now when I see them it feels like forever I haven't seen them.

I miss being such a sassy sarcastic prick to them that they would go along with the sarcasm.

I miss our inside jokes when someone says something that reminds you of that joke and you just immediately think about them but you can't laugh about it out loud because you're not with them anymore.

I miss being the noisiest and rowdy class with them and when a teacher gets mad at us we would give a damn for a second but do it again and the cycle repeats.

I know it's just been the second day of school but somethings are just hard to let go and move on. It's not that easy. Those are just some of the reasons why I miss them.

With that being said those people in the picture right there will forever be apart of me and I will always love them because if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be here right now making this post or the last posts because I would've been dead. It was because of them when I felt suicidal I would just think about them and the inside jokes we made that I surely will miss. These people saved my life and have helped me stop my mental disorders and made me feel loved when I thought I wasn't loved. It is such a blessing to have them in my life and I love them so much.

Things I miss about my childhood

I bet all of us had something or somethings we miss in our childhood right now. For example playing our gameboys or other stuff like that for hours, our favorite candies or food that are not made anymore or you're too old to eat it now, favorite tv shows and many more!

Now I shall confess on what I miss on my childhood and hope you guys can relate. I miss playing my game boy for hours and my only problem was the time my mom had to get it because my eyes were glued to the screen because I was addicted to super mario and harvest moon. Same goes as well as my nintendo DS; I was so addicted with playing with my nintendo dogs and playing pokemon. Haha. I wonder how they after years of not feeding them.

  

I also miss that bubble gum that has been rolled up and it would take me a week to finish it because I wanna savor the goodness of that bubble gum even if I can finish it in a day. 

 

I also miss That's So Raven. That show was amazing. Why did Disney have to cancel it? Like if Disney chose a day of the week to show all the old Disney shows for a whole day I think they would have countless viewers every single week. Moving back to the topic about That's So Raven. That show spoke to me. Especially when Raven said in that one episode that size doesn't matter. Thinking of what's happening to our generation right now a lot of teens starve themselves to have that "perfect thigh gap". I am guilty that I had my own fair share of starving myself to the point that my chest hurts or I faint in the most time you think that can't happen. But then I realized having a thigh gap doesn't define your beauty it's accepting yourself that you are beautiful and that is true beauty.

  

 

  

 

 

With that being said there are a lot of things we miss about our childhood  that sometimes we wish we can go back in time and relive that moment because some of us wished we could grow up fast but now that we're grown up we wish we were back in our childhood.

Fashion Inspiration & Favorite models

Fashion is a big deal for me because that's how I express myself. I sometimes go for grunge or sometimes I go boho. Those are my favorite styles. Anyways I'm gonna share my favorite pictures on tumblr that are fashion-y and my favorite models.

 

I think these maxi dresses are adorable. The white maxi is perfect for summer. Unfortunately summer is ending here in the Philippines. -cries- Also unfortunate that I don't know what brand are these two beautiful dresses from. If you do know please comment below.

 

Street style is all the rage right now. I see lots of celebrities/models/fashion bloggers doing it. 

  

This perfect human being above is my favorite model. Cara Delevingne. If you don't know her; you must be living under a rock because she's mostly in every brand. She has modeled for Burberry, H&M, Zara, Chanel, Moschino, Oscar de la Renta, Dolce & Gabbana, Fendi, Stella McCartney, and the list goes on. She's also been on Vogue. Also has graced the cat walk of Victoria's Secret fashion in 2012. I can talk about her more but we have to move on.

  

These two models are Daphne Groenveld and the one in the right I'm embarrassed to say but I do not know here name. I'm so sorry. But isn't she a stunner? Same goes to Daphne.

 

This next one well I don't know her name too. I'm really sorry but isn't she beautiful?

  

I've always wanted dungarees but I don't know where to buy one. If you do know comment down below an online shop or if you live in the Philippines if you know a store that sells comment as well and I will go to that shop.

 

Printed bathing suits. I've always been a big fan of these. I have a printed bathing suit and it's design is aztec and it's very nice.

  

I'm also a big fan of rings. I have a lot of rings actually. Tumblr girls who take pictures of their hands that have billions of rings on their finger have "inspired" me to buy lots of rings too.

 

  

Jumpers. I'm in love with jumpers there is not a time when my mom and I go shopping and don't buy a jumper for moi except when it's summer.

  

The clothes that the girl is wearing is from saboskirt. You guys should check it out. They have the best hipster/bohoey clothes I've seen.

  

This is another picture of Cara. I can't promise you that this would be the last one ;)

 

I've always wanted bras like those. Or is it called a bustier? I'm not sure. Please do tell me. I also want leather shorts but can't seem to find where to buy one. If you know any stores comment below.

   

Vanessa Hudgens. I just love love love her style. Mostly it's the one I follow. She sometimes go boho or sometimes go grunge. Like me! But in this pic I think she has combined the two and I think she looks amazing. Her style is fabulous. Especially when it comes to coachellas.

  

This is the last pic of Cara I have on this blog post. Her eyebrows are just beautiful. It's her trade mark. Do you know that?

   

Unfortunately I don't know this girl but  I think she is gorgeous. It's impossible that she's not a model. Look at that breathtaking face.

  

I don't wear the color orange at all for some odd reason that I don't want to talk about but I think it goes well with the dress or is that top and skirt?

  

Anna Sophia Robb. I'm not a big fan of Carrie Diaries but I do watch it when I see it on air. Anyways I think her style looks fab here. Sequined blazer + white tank + skinny denim jeans = perfect outfit

  

Kendall Jenner. I'm a big fan of this girl. I like to follow her style and follow her on Keeping Up With The Kardashians ever since season one and my love grew big for her more when she started modelling.

   

When I learned that it's necessary for every girl to have an LBD I immediately bought one cause I didn't have one because I don't like wearing dresses. But yeah this dress is so nice. It's perfect to wear it in a warm weather.

 

Finally the last picture. I would like to talk about the graphic shirt and the studded shoes. I have lots of graphic shirts because I'm insanely in love with it. I always go online shopping for it because there is this one store that you can sorta customize your shirt. Also the studded shoes. I'm a big fan of studs. I have a piece of clothing from top to bottom that has stud on it. My favorite studded item is my studded boots that my mom gave to me for Christmas.

Well that is the end of this post I hope you guys enjoyed it!

Midnight in Paris

I just finished watching this movie called Midnight in Paris that was made by Woody Allen and I thought the movie was amazing. I'm still kind of hung up on in it because I thought it was gonna suck because I judged the cover too quickly. But then I gave it a chance then on I watched it. The movie was amazing. I realized a lot of things. First never judge a book by it's cover. Second midnight in Paris during the 20's was amazing. I'm not gonna spoil the movie if you haven't watched it yet. I'm just gonna quote my favorite line that hit me in the movie.

 “Maybe the present is a little unsatisfying because life is a little unsatisfying.” 

This line hit me because I was never satisfied with my generation. I've always wanted to live in the past. I wanted to live in the 60's and see and feel what was it like to love the Beatles at that time. I wanted to live in the 40's or 50's because I wanted to see how people saw Marilyn Monroe at that time when her imperfectness made her perfect. Girls these days aren't like Marilyn Monroe. Mostly every girl right now starves themselves to have that 'perfect thigh gap' and I don't understand why. Marilyn Monroe didn't have a thigh gap but she was considered the sexiest woman of her time. I also wanted to live in those days because I wanted to see Audrey Hepburn and Elizabeth films in those cinemas of that time. But unfortunately I cannot just go back in time and experience that. But don't get me wrong I love the present too but I just really wanna know how it feels like to live in those times.

With that being said I guess it is true that the present is a little unsatisfying because life is a little unsatisfying. We want to live in another generation because we think we could have a better life there because let's face it this generation I'm in it sucks. But at the end of the day each generation sucked because life can be a little unsatisfying that time too. We just have to deal with what we have been given.

Moments of happiness

There's just lots of ideas or things that just pop up in your head when you think about moments happiness especially your own moments. It could either be you finally reaching the top of a mountain and raising your head to see the wonderful view thinking "wow i made it this far" or when someone tells you that they're important to you and they don't wanna lose you or that feeling when you're swimming in this wonderful ocean and you arise your head from the water and breathe and feel alive - moments like that. Moments that will forever be a part of you that made you happy. 

You must be wondering why I'm talking about this. Well I have 11 days more until my summer 2013 ends. It's probably one of the best summer I ever had in my life. I did a lot of fun things like go house hopping to my senior high school friend's houses at night to give their gifts to them, I went swimming/bowling/eating with my classmates for two years straight for a whole day, stayed up all night with my friends, I had my best friends surprise me at my house a lot of times when I felt alone, I went to a concert and the guy I liked sang to me, I got the shoes I've always wanted (Dr.Martens), I auditioned to be a rookie radio jock at my favorite station and I passed all the rounds but unfortunately it wasn't enough to be a rookie radio jock but I won in friends and experience that I am so thankful for, I went to Singapore with my mom, I met the cast of Fast & Furious 6, I went to parties and a lot more!

Wow that's a handful of moments of happiness that I have done this summer. But I didn't mention the others cause I've noticed I have typed a lot. Haha. I am thankful for these moments that have been given to me because not a lot of people get to experience this. But at the end of the day I learned that money is not always the reason to attain happiness. I know I know the things I mentioned are moments I spent money on but in those moments I got to experience it with the people I love and be happy with them which clearly money cannot buy. Yeah yeah it sounds corny but it's true. Nothing like a well day spent with the people you love. 

A Fresh Start

I haven't been posting for more than a month now. But today I decided to check it out and read my old posts (that are now deleted) that this blog needed a fresh start. I wanted to start it on a positive note by sharing funny posts that I found on tumblr to make you guys smile. If any of you are having a bad day or just looking for a reason to laugh. Enjoy!